交响梦
my latest favourite song (: a very image intensive song with a nice, warm feeling!
交响梦 - 苏打绿
午后时分 睡得很沉 嘈杂鸟儿 也全都充耳不闻
行板如歌 歌里在等 等你来和 和一篇雨季解渴
雷声铺陈 嘹亮地哼 大地与河 万物屏息这一刻
蛰睡了一世纪的下午被你惊醒
迷雾从身后穿起扣成水滴
透明的伤口 漂亮的残忍 藏到土壤里
雨的铿锵临盆比梦的合奏还静
阡陌牧车 因你饶舌 雷声如灯 敲开了一年兴奋
急板成歌 歌落成河 河在狂奔 奔击了乾涸混沌
蛰睡了一世纪的下午被你惊醒
迷雾从身后穿起扣成水滴
透明的伤口 漂亮的残忍 藏到土壤里
雨的铿锵临盆比梦的合奏还静
埋伏了一整季的思念被你剥离
棉絮爬上了头发换算年龄
气候的成长 季风的回忆 收进课本里
我自己来缝补我自己
修剪自己迎接你淋湿我风乾的心
雨停时分 洗澈烟尘 新的花梗 正期待炫耀颜色
黄昏人们 敞开了家里大门
宁静很深 世界迎接你这一刻 生命来了
consilio et animis
5/31/2009 05:33:00 PM
and this was how it ended (part 2)
and so, after saying my farewells to my classes, i headed back to the staff room. finally got to see the posters that i was supposed to hunt for. luckily i didnt have to walk around the school looking for them... if not many people would have seen my unglam photos before that! :D
anw, the first thing which the teachers noticed about all the farewell messages which my classes wrote for me was that they are generally pink/red HAHA :D seems like my students all thought alike (: was quite hungry then, and thankfully, the math HOD bought 豆沙饼 (omg i actually forgot what this is called in english) for everyone, and ms wang forced me to eat at least 2 HAHA. really thankful to my teachers who had been looking out for me all this while. sometimes i get so engrossed with my work that i forget to take a break, or forget to have lunch, and they will ask me down to the canteen to have lunch with them, or just to drink something.
after the food, it was time to get my exit clearance signed. there were 4 signatures i had to get before i was cleared to leave the school... HOD, library officer, IT dept, estate dept. sounds like ORD clearance haha. HOD's signature was easy to get. library officer's signature was easy to obtain too. just walked up to library, check that i do not have any books on loan, and then i was cleared.
next was the clearance with the IT department. i didnt have time to clear up my desktop, so the hebe wallpaper was still in the comp, along with the MSN program which will auto log in... so i hope they will like reformat the comp or something before they pass it on to the next user. i checked and ensured that all the accessories were in place, and quickly returned the laptop to the IT department before the staff left school. and so i said goodbye to my best companion for the past semester too. without the laptop, i think i would be seriously handicapped, and wouldnt be able to explain things as clearly. IT department clearance took quite a long time, cos the person who was supposed to sign wasnt inside the office. waited for a while before i got that settled.
after that, i headed to estate to return my VGA cable, and asked for an extension for the return of the staff pass. i wasnt in the mood to pack up my table there and then, and if i rushed the packing up, i would most certainly leave something behind, and then i wouldnt be able to come back and collect it anymore. and so i asked if i could keep the pass for one more day and return it the next day, and thankfully they consented. i then went back up to the staff room, and prepared for my last consultation with a student, before i concluded my last day of work at the RJ math department.
by then, all i wanted to do was to quickly get back home. but i had things to do too. i had to shop for some gifts and cards for the math department tutors, to show my appreciation to them. stopped by j8 and purchased some random items which shockingly amounted to over $50. i didnt really check the prices before buying... just saw what i thought was nice and took them off the shelves. turned out that some of the cards which i picked for a few teachers were rather expensive.
after that, i made my way home and finally got my nice hot bath :D then i had dinner, and was really really tired after such an eventful day, so i plonked onto my bed and fell asleep. it was a nice and peaceful sleep cos i dont have to worry about completing the syllabus with my classes, for once! :D im so glad that it all ended well, and i managed to complete the stats content with all my classes. hopefully they will all do well for CTs and do me proud (: and i hope to see many many students from my classes on the deans' list. i didnt really have much time to think back about the events of the day though, cos i promptly fell asleep.
woke up at around 11 cos i had one last thing to do... writing a personalised message for each of the 12 math department jc1 tutors. ive worked with them for quite a while, and they have all been very nice to me, so i thought the least i could do was to write each of them a personalised message. i started at around midnight, and started writing to tutors that i was less close to, and ended off writing to the tutors that i was really close to. and as i continued writing, somewhere around the last few cards, i realised i was crying. the thought of all the help which the tutors had rendered me with, the concern they had shown, the lame jokes and stories they told to brighten up my day, the numerous lunches we had together... all these made me realise how much i missed the math department already! thankfully it was late at night so noone could see me cry haha. when i was done, it was 3... so i spent 3 hours writing 12 cards! felt very proud of my "杰作", and after this, i probably wont expect to stay up late again in the near future. :D
having rested, and completed everything i was supposed to do, i started reading all the farewell messages which my classes wrote for me. it was then that i was really overwhelmed by the sadness of leaving my classes. i guess i was too tired during the day itself to feel sad, and im glad for that... if not my classes will see my unglam crying moment :S i was very touched by the comments of some of my students, and i didnt know i made a difference to so many of my students. and i think my sadness was accentuated by the loneliness and serenity of the night, and so, in the end, i did cry at the thought of how much ill miss my classes.
after the emotional message reading session, i went to sleep. woke up quite early this morning to go to school and pack up my table, as well as distribute the cards and gifts to the math department tutors. there was some major cleaning session in school, and the old ah-huay-auntie cleaning up the staff room. greeted her for the last time (she remembers me for some reason haha), and then went to clear my table.
its amazing how much stuff i suddenly realised i dont need. ended up chucking away huge stacks of paper. i decided that i wanted to keep the class mugshots of my classes, even though i can remember all my students' names... and so i made photocopies of the mugshots and kept the originals, leaving the photocopies for the next tutor who is taking over. after which, i updated the latest assignment scores for my classes, and the attendance books and that marks the end of my duties as a relief tutor.
next up, i went around to distribute the thank you cards and gifts to the math department tutors. felt like a santa claus cos i had this bag of cards and gifts and then i was walking along the empty aisles of tables and placing gifts on the tables of the tutors, who will be pleasantly surprised when they next return to their desks :D lastly, i had to hand back my pass, but i had a nagging feeling that i might have left something behind, which i have yet to pack in my bag. so, i decided to take a walk around the school first before coming back to do a final check of my desk. i also thought it was a good idea to make use of the staff pass for the last time to access areas that are inaccessible to students and visitors. and so, i walked around school, and enjoyed my last few moments in RJ (sounds dramatic, but i really do love the college). bumped into several of my students and chatted with them. also paid a visit to my most hated tutorial room A56. good riddance to that cursed tutorial room (:
and when i was finally done with my mini tour, i went back up to the staff room to do my final packing up. took a last glance at the staff room, and was quite reluctant to surrender my pass, but i did in the end, and signed out of the record book for the last time and that officially ends my stint in RJC as a math department relief tutor.
i am so glad to have met so many awesome students, and had the opportunity to have permanent classes attached to me. there was one time where i almost had to give up one class, but thankfully it was sorted out and i got to see my classes through till the end of the stats course. i am also glad to have the opportunity to work alongside my teachers, and even though they are more experienced than i am, they do listen to my suggestions during unit meetings, and let me voice my opinions on certain teaching points, common mistakes, and even on test questions. im really grateful to work with such a supportive department, and to have taught such wonderful classes, and they have all played a great role in making my stint at RJC a really memorable one. a big THANK YOU to all of them! finally, i am relieved of my duties, and i can really sleep in peace now (:
ah, but a new job awaits on monday! but till then... :D
consilio et animis
5/30/2009 10:01:00 PM
and this was how it ended (part 1)
the end of term 2 has finally arrived, and its time to say goodbye to my classes. the last few days were really crazy, but i am glad it all turned out fine. wednesday was the deadline i gave to my classes to submit any written work for me to mark. and so, i had this huge pile of assignments (which even included back-dated assignments) to mark on wednesday, and i had to get them all marked by friday. had to sleep really late on wed and thur nights, but i survived with music (SHE and mayday!) and sweets.
the challenge was keeping a clear mind for lessons on thur and fri, despite sleeping late the night before. thursday wasnt so bad, because my timetable wasnt that crammed. but it was also my last day with 3B. had a double period with them, with a break in between, so i had my last lunch with them during the break. then during my 2nd lesson with 3B, alvin and kakiong came into the class and shouted "SURPRISE!" it was quite a pleasant surprise, with a huge PINK placard containing messages from 3B, a red balloon which says SHE (Hebe) loves you and a nice cake :D there was also a packet of dried prawn (which is hei bi in dialect, which sounds like HEBE), and i thought that was quite creative. anw, the cake was nice and chocolatey and i loved it alot! was really pleased that they prepared so much for my farewell, and i was really touched.
then on friday was my last day, and my timetable was crazy as i had taken the GP lessons of all my classes. so it was a 1 hour lesson, followed by a 1 hour break, followed by 4 and a half hours of lessons, a half hour break, then a final 1 hour lesson. i was a little afraid i might be talking nonsense towards the end (especially since i havent had much sleep). thankfully that never happened.
started the day off with my last lesson with 3D. got A57, the spongebob class, and the projector in that classroom was really cooperative, not like the A56 projector which eternally hates me. anw, unlike 3B, 3D wasnt very discreet with their "farewell surprise". when the lesson ended, all of them raised a piece of paper which contained a letter, and it spelt the message "WE LOVE MR TANCK". the effect was quite nice, and touching too... and i was closest to crying then, but i controlled and managed to regain my composure and made my farewell statement. we then took some photos before i left. i was told that there would be posters of me pasted around school, but thankfully that didnt happen. :D
next up was lesson number 1 with 6T. they were quite surprised that i took their GP lesson, because it was all quite last minute and the GP tutor only approached me in the morning. completed the last tutorial with them, and so i was just left with assignment review and recap with 6T for my 2nd lesson in the afternoon. after that, i headed for my lesson with 1F. it was the most stressful lesson of the day, since i had most things left uncovered with the class. i was rushing through the lesson really fast and the students were asking me to calm down and relax and not look so stressed. i really breathed a sigh of relief when i managed to complete the syllabus with that class! haha it was really a great experience teaching an arts class, and trying to get them to love maths, and i think i did fine :D
then came a 2 hour session with 6N. had not much worries for that class, since it is my fastest class in terms of covering of content, and i had more than enough time. i even had some time to do some practice questions with them. close to the end of the lesson, i was told that there was a surprise for me, and i had to close my eyes. turned out they took a few funny shots of me with my eye closed. and when i opened my eyes, there was a cake placed dangerously close to my face :D the cheesecake was for me, but it was quite large, so i got my math rep to split it up and share it with the whole class (: i also got another placard of messages from 6N... a red one this time. we then took photos, and i chatted with several people in the class, and also the councillors. hopefully the 29ths will be able to make their mark in the college and all the best :D
there was supposed to be a half hour break before my final lesson, but i spent it with 6N, so i had to rush off to my last lesson with 6T after that. by now, i have repeated the slides countless of times i became like a recording machine, reciting out what i had said in the previous classes. was also quite tired by then, cos i had been standing for a long long time. and so i was reliefed when the lesson ended, and then i found out 6T had messages written to me on a huge RED paper too. some of the messages were really funny, including one which says "see you at cambridge" :D
and so, that was the end of my crazy day, and it was REALLY REALLY REALLY sad to part with so many of my classes in one day. thankfully, i didnt cry in front of them, (which would have been so unglam and awkward), partly because i was really tired and hungry, and all i was thinking of was to complete my clearance (YES i still had one last thing to do before i could go home), so that i could go home, get a hot bath and enjoy my dinner.
(to be continued)
consilio et animis
5/30/2009 06:03:00 PM
last week of school
i really can't believe it is the last week already. i think i will experience a myriad of moods this week. anxiousness, of trying to complete the syllabus with my classes. relief, when i complete the stats course with my classes. joy, knowing that i have done a good job. sadness, for having to part with my classes. hopefully my classes won't make me so sad and emotional that i'll cry. but i'll really miss them all.
and now, as i type my assessment of my students, writing the comments for each student is like saying goodbye to them. i wonder how permanent teachers cope with this on a yearly basis. ): it would take me quite a while to recover from the sorrow of parting with one batch! so mebbe im not suited to be a teacher after all HAHA.
consilio et animis
5/25/2009 08:33:00 PM
放肆
lots of new songs this week! cao ge, zhang dong liang and mayday :D i love the new mayday song alot! in fact, i like alot of the "high" mayday song (: possible kbox song in the near future!
放肆 - 五月天
就放肆爱放肆追 放肆去闯 放肆是我的信仰
再不去闯 梦想永远只会是一个梦
想太多忧伤太重的梦想 还不如干脆不多想
每一个身后的浪 都会有浪花绽放
我确定边冲边欣赏
如果要我们都活在地上 偏偏我就想要飞翔
要挣脱命运捆绑 要推翻玻璃围墙
要站上巨人的肩膀
梦想永远是逆向 一路都有人阻挡
人们说的荒唐 却是我的心中的天堂
就放肆爱 放肆追 放肆去闯 放肆的大闹一场
不能原谅 如果很多年后我还是这样
就放肆爱放肆追 放肆去闯 放肆是我的信仰
再不去闯 梦想永远只会是一个梦想
哥伦布只要有一颗星光 就胆敢横越大西洋
我还有一把吉他 我还有一群死党
为什么还不大声唱
达尔文假设生命是战场 就让我轻易不投降
把伤痕装满手掌 把不顺装满心脏
把歌声装满肺活量
梦想永远是逆光 只有坚硬的模样
会有什么世界 什么体验 不要去猜想
就放肆爱放肆追 放肆去闯 放肆的大闹一场
不能原谅 如果很多年后我还是这样
就放肆爱放肆追 放肆去闯 放肆是我的信仰
再不去闯梦想永远只会是一个梦想
再不去闯梦想永远只会是一个梦想on a side note, i found out that gary's new album is called Supermarket. wow. i wonder if he will have a song called that. so he is carrying on his "super" trend. from superwoman to superman to super sushine... now supermarket. HAHA. i really wonder what the next album will be called. super star sounds decent, but knowing gary and his weird ideas, its bound to be something as shocking as supermarket. dont quite like his first hit though... on the other hand, i like zhang dong liang's new hit, 沉默的瞬间, alot. it is a rock ballad, which is a slightly different genre from his previous songs.
and so another week has concluded! it had been a hectic week, no doubt. think i spend a 2 digit number of hours in school each day this week! had tons of makeups with my classes, and giving my best shot at completing the syllabus with my classes! hopefully ill be able to wrap up everything nicely in the final week, and then its goodbye to my classes. i really cant imagine how id say goodbye, but its definitely going to be very sad. ): till then...
consilio et animis
5/22/2009 10:50:00 PM
我知道
我知道 - BY2
从来没想过 不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你 陪着我心痛
一切都是我 太过骄纵 以为你会懂
一直忘了说 我有多感动
我知道你还是爱着我
虽然 分开的理由 我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以 即使到最后 还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会 在离开时 闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实 这份爱没停过
从来没想过 不能再和你牵手
委屈时候没有你 陪着我心痛
一切都是我 太过娇纵 以为你会懂
一直忘了说 我有多感动
我知道你还是爱着我
虽然 分开的理由 我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以 即使到最后 还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会 在离开时 闭着眼没有回头
我们都知道彼此心中
其实 这份爱没停过
曾经完整幸福的梦 在脑海里头
我多希望你 还在我左右
我知道你还是爱着我
虽然 分开的理由 我们都已接受
你知道我会有多难过
所以 即使到最后 还微笑着要我加油
我知道你还放不下我
才会 在离开时 闭着眼没有回头
答应你 我会好好过
不让 这些眼泪白流another nice song (: quite a lot of nice songs recently! theres wilber, SHE and tank's new song, and i just listened to ou de yang's new EP. even though there is only 1 new song, 1 fan chang and the rest are instrumentals, i kind of liked the EP. the instrumentals sound equally touching haha... and the fan chang of peter pan (pan yu wen)'s wo he ni cong wei fen shou is a lot nicer than pan yu wen's original version in my opinion.
AAAH. its week 8 now, and i am struggling really hard to complete the syllabus with my classes. i think i wont even have time to say a proper goodbye to my classes. i feel really sad that my term at rj is coming to an end. ill really miss my classes, and miss teaching maths. ): if only i had a little more time.
consilio et animis
5/13/2009 08:39:00 PM
Be With You
OMG im addicted to this song :D
Be With You - 潘玮柏 + Akon
I know they wanna come and separate us but they can't do us nothing
You're the one I want and I'm a continue loving
Cause you're considered wife and I'm considered husband
And I'm a always be there for you
我不管你用任何眼光看我 我都不会选择放弃
我要坚持到底 忽略那些冷言冷语
爱是如此珍贵 值得我们彼此相信
两颗心才越靠越近
And no one knows
Why I'm into you
Cause you'll never know
What it's like to walk in our shoes
没人会懂 是我们的梦
懂再多困难只要牵手 就变得不同
That's why we'll break through
And I don't care what they say
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
我不在乎怎么做
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
Seems like every day that go by things are gettin' harder
Want to be the one that give you the whole enchilada
Cause I know what my baby like, I lean you on that Prada
You ain't got to match with the shoes
我知道每一次的沟通 就会让我爱你更多
跟一次的拥抱 温暖让我不再怯懦
爱是真实的触摸 美好或相同
Keeping it always true
And no one knows
What I'm into you
Cause you'll never know what it's like to walk in our shoes
没人会懂 是我们的梦 Yeah
懂再多困难只要牵手 就变得不同
That's why we'll break through
And I don't care what they say
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
我不在乎 怎么做
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
You are everything in my life see the joy you bring
And ain't no one I compare you to
And I know that you will never
walk away from me no matter what
And that's why I plan to do the same thing for you
And I want you to know
Be in my life with me
You know you my queen B
I show you the finer things in life and places you wanted to be
It's trips in Miami, rockin Tenjune NYC
Party up at club Bling till 6 in da morning
Don't want yo body figure sexually
I wanna pop you figures annually, showing you so security
You dun gota worry B, satisfaction guaranteed
You dont need another G, you can have it all on me,
Eh! you are like morphine you soothe me
Thru da pain and da struggles it gets hot you cool me
Coz you's wifey quality qualified, Warranty you certified,
You know how to get me high, hotter than a super ride
You know when you want it, you need it, you know I got it
You know when you want me, you need me you know I give it
So whenever in doubt you can count on me,
Whatever it is you be under my wing.
Whatever you down you can put it on me,
And wherever you go you be rocking my ring (ring ring).
And I don't care what they say
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I wanna be with you
我不在乎 怎么做
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
And I don't care what they say
I gonna be with you
I gonna be with you
I gonna be with you
我不在乎 怎么做
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
I'm gonna be with you
consilio et animis
5/13/2009 05:03:00 PM
amazing race finale, and a NEW SHOW to watch!
woke up super early today to watch the amazing race finale! their first task was to carry a 145 pound pig across a beach and properly cover it for cooking. it was really amusing to see how the teams struggled with the pig, and they dropped the pig in the sand/seawater a few times. and the pig was supposed to be for cooking later.
after that, teams are supposed to head to the maui surfboard fence and create a mini surfboard fence with pictures representing each leg of their race. despite reaching there first, luke was the last to complete the task, while victor breezed through it, thus landing his sister and himself in first place. i was kind of shocked when they were told to make their way to their finish line after the surfboard challenge. was really expecting a few more tasks or at least a detour! so basically there wasn't much excitement in this finale in my opinion. which made it a little anticlimatic haha. i was even expecting some twist before the teams could check in on the finishing mat... but i think i gave the producers too much credit!
on a side note, i thought it was really funny how jamie and cara always end up with CMI taxi drivers. is it just their luck or something? but their drivers always do not know their way, or mess up things for them. and they will be bitching all the way in the taxi, which is highly entertaining haha.
anyway, i havent had time to blog about survivor on friday. i must say debbie getting voted out was quite a surprise to me. and as usual, coach continues to rant about him playing the game with integrity and honour, which is really funny. much as i hate coach, id love to see him stay around a bit more to see what other kinds of contradictory comments or fanciful stories he can weave up!
and today, i just found a new show to watch - harper's island! it should help me overcome my withdrawal symptoms from heroes for a while! :D watched the first 2 episodes of harper's island and thought it was awesome! and it fits the suspense / thriller genre show that i love to watch (: after watching the 2 episodes, i proceeded on to prepare the tutorial for the next chapter and i cant believe i spent 8 HOURS on the slides for half the tutorial! but im very proud of my work, and the slides look really nice (: hopefully my efforts will be appreciated haha.
consilio et animis
5/11/2009 10:15:00 PM
amazing race!
wow it was a really exciting race for a final 3 spot on amazing race today. first of all, the racers did not get any rest from the previous leg, as it was a double leg race. so after checking in at the pit stop the night before, they had to continue through the night to head to their next destination. i thought that by itself was physically demanding, given that they had just swam many laps in their previous task.
and the untimely u-turn was just evil. tammy and victor were smart, they u-turned jen and kisha, who were the most athletic of them all. if they stayed, they would be a big threat when it comes down to a foot race.
anw we finally see some more chinese-culture related tasks! haha... seeing the teams race around in opera performers' makeup and dresses was just amusing. and of course, there was the gross task of having to eat larvae, starfish, scorpion and grasshopper. i didnt know china sells those kinds of food as street food! jamie and cara were unable to overcome the language barrier, and fell from 1st to last spot. and jamie's quote at that point in time sounded funny, seeing how she actually looked serious saying it: "That's why I did not want to go to China. It sucks."
the race for the 3rd spot was just exciting. there was jen and kisha VS jamie and cara. jen and kisha had a headstart, but jen needed to go to pee, so that delayed their checking in at the pit stop, and jamie and cara beat them by seconds. it was a really dumb reason to lose their chance at a million dollars, and it was sad to see jen and kisha go, since they fought really hard to make a comeback after their disastrous performance in the previous leg.
so, it's the finals next week, and monday is a public holiday, so i will be able to watch the live screening! i think tammy and victor have been working quite well as a team, and im rooting for them! i doubt jamie and cara will make history by being the first all female team to win the race though... but it would certainly be a huge shocker if they do!
consilio et animis
5/04/2009 10:17:00 PM
an extremely ardous month
went kbox with
tzekwan and her friends (ok, and friends of friends too) yesterday. as i left something important in school the day before, i made a trip to school first before heading for kbox. despite yesterday being a public holiday, there were numerous people in school! and to my surprise, i wasnt the only staff member in the staff room! after getting what i needed from my cubicle, i made my way to AMK central. i almost couldnt find my way to the kbox centre there, but after trying very hard to recall the route which kai took me through the last time round and the random comments we made of the shops that we bypassed, i managed to locate the kbox centre.
i love the 2-7 slot! sing for 5 hours, super shiok! haha! the group of us sang a large variety of songs, from very new songs (mostly chosen by me) to very old classics (mostly sang by
tzekwan haha). and we had several common favourite singers, eg SHE and fish, so at one point in time, there were a few pages of SHE and fish songs on the "已点歌" list :D sang a few "high" songs, which ill always sing when i go kbox. wanted to sing hihi byebye, but noone there knew that cute song, and
tzekwan didnt appreciate cyndi. maybe nxt time! and i realised ive never seen fish's "wei wo hao" mv before! so when i reached home i went to watch the full mv, which is close to 11 mins! haha... before we ended the kbox session, we chose leo ku's 12 min song. lol. the kbox staff had to chase us out towards the end. she was probably wondering how come we could continue singing for so long.
its so fun to kbox! its always a good way to destress for me. but it didnt help much. after all the fun and laughter yesterday, i sat down and reviewed my lesson plan for the remainder of the term. my stint at rj is coming to an end, and ill be leaving my classes very soon. the problem is, theres still a lot left to cover, before my students r fully prepared for the upcoming common tests. there are quite a number of teachers who are slower than me in terms of tutorial progress, but they are having make ups during the june holidays, something i am unable to do due to my upcoming internship. so the best i can do is to hold many make up sessions and attempt to cover the syllabus before the term ends.
to make matters worse, the possibility of schools being closed down is hovering around. i really dont know what im going to do if schools were to close down, so i am really hoping that there wont be a H1N1 outbreak in singapore. *crosses fingers really hard*
the math department teachers keep reassuring me that there is no need to worry, as they will pick up the pieces from where i left off, but it will never be the same for me. i guess im just a perfectionist. i signed up for the job to complete the entire stats course with my classes... if i do not get the chance to do so, ill just have this tinge of regret. ok, its an understatement to say "tinge". i think it will just continue to bug me for a long long time.
and so, this morning, i just stared at the calendar, looking at the little time i have left with my classes, and thinking about the massive amounts of content i still have to cover, and i basically just stressed myself up again. how i wish i have a shi2 guang1 ji1 and slow time down. im already feeling very sad that ill be leaving my classes soon. and now i feel further burdened by the stress of completing the syllabus, and the possibility of schools being closed down (which means the possibility of having to say an early farewell to my classes).
an extremely ardous month of may lie ahead. arghh. i need more kbox therapy.
consilio et animis
5/02/2009 07:32:00 PM
